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The reverbnation links are all people I know

Virtual Terrorist - Fuck Like a Pornstar - http://www.reverbnation.com/virtualterrorist
Gotthavok - Failure to Comply - http://www.reverbnation.com/gotthavok
SubStation9 - Waves of Conception - http://www.reverbnation.com/substation9
Psykkle - Welcoming the Dead - http://www.reverbnation.com/psykkle
NSAF - Warcrimes Against Muffins - http://www.reverbnation.com/nsaf
Grendel - Soilbleed V3 -
Bad Sector - Alex 1964 -
Rottersand - Would you Buy This -
Angel One - Into Your Eyes -
DJ Coone - Jumpstyle Vibes -
Aphex Twin - Pikachu Mutha Fucka -

Part Two
Underworld (Hacker's OST) - Cowgirl -
Propellerheads - Spybreak -
Fluke - Zion -
Dismantled - Anthem -
Massive Attack & Mos Def - I Against I -
Velvet Acid Christ - There is No God -
Converter - Monster Death
Hocico - Psicosis -

Artist - Song - youtube or myspace link

Dismantled - Anthem
Assemblage 23 - I am the Rain - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E8bHPssl8nw (amv but good quality)
Star Wars: Force Commander OST - Imperial March (Rage Against The Machine Mix) - N/A
Theatre of Tragedy - Machine (VNV Nation remix) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=owy7EDnz9b8
Project Pitchfork - TimeKiller - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xCDLLHibTtU
Eiffel 65 - Hyperlink - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nv451Czlh4Y
Basshunter - Vi Sitter I Ventrilo Och Spelar Dota - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ktjJDIX8mQQ (english subs)
Pet Shop Boys - Discoteca - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vEXAU0gCd0w (live performance)
Mind In A Box - Amnesia - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fqj6f8iGjfA
Brooklyn Bounce - Born to Bounce - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_MyoCE98Vq0
Da Rude - Sandstorm - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ZXPP7qMSz4
SITD - Lebensborn - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LiREWmsWBZc
E Nomine - Das Omen - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jpaPlc62RbE
VNV Nation - Dark Angel - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u3-IPG-XnaU&feature=related
Suicide Commando - Necrophilia - (no video, but check out this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dABUnKTgUyA )
Detective Conan OST - Always - N/A
Combichrist - Electrohead - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xG44s2ANFo0
Feindflug - Stukas im Visier - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LiAurBZpYEo
The Azoic - Conflict (Turmoil mix) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fHETMPJ0qvY (I actually even found the remix)
The Prodigy - Breathe - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VymqFCxV2Gw (fucking WIN)

For the next little while I'm trying something different here. I've been invited back to an old VTM channel I used to RP in and have been approved as the channel's club DJ. Because the chat they use doesn't really have any way for me to link people to the music that Jace, my character is playing, and most of the players are not familiar with Electronic music I've decided that LJ is the perfect way to introduce people to the music I love.
As an added bonus my other friends get a taste of things too! and I start using my LJ again >.>

Tuesday, Feb 19th 2008 Session
Artist - Song Name - youtube link

First Set
Converter - Subliminal Eye - No Video but possibly my favorite song
This Morn' Omina - One Eyed Man - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mt9KUIH_r3M (not the full song)
Juno Reactor - Kaguya Hime - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a38rdQ2mEds (not full song)
Cosmic Gate - Exploration of Space - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ctr-t0LxD9w
Infected Mushroom - Cities of the Future - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g39GPSYqbiU

Second Set
Basshunter - Boten Anna - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RYQUsp-jxDQ
Velvet Acid Christ - Fun with Drugs - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VHJAQ1Iym9A
OhGr - Majik - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Axib41zsm8&feature=related
Massive Attack - Angel - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jZsHNkAJBDU
Juno Reactor - Mutant Message - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tixGE3Ts6_0
Combichrist - Shut up and Swallow - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HHjDeg4wFpA
Skinny Puppy - Worlock - Restricted but available

Too much to ctch up on. Most of you know me anyways.
It' 5:30am as I start to write this but it's likely I'll forget to post the time when I'm done. I "went to bed" early tonight, about 2:30am. I wound up skimming through most of my copy of The Watchmen anthology. Rorschach is... not like me at all, but parts of me are very much like him.
He keeps a journal, his thoughts are nothing like mine but the structure is similar. Disjointed, not entirely whole. In the comic it is said he was a man who looked at a grim world and all it's problems and became a grimmer man to combat it. I am nowhere near grim. I see the world in a particular light, tainted by my own cross-wiring and past experiences, and I react to it by trying to be a positive focal point. Unfortunately I fail all too often. I become moody, or whine too much, something I am guilty of more and more. I try to off-set this by praising other things but to me it sounds false and forced. I want to change. I want to grow up and stop whining. I want to take things in stride. I want to start a task and finish it. I want to move forward in my life. But I don't know where to begin.

I almost quit my job today. It would have been pointless and over something trival, but I think it's a sign I need to step back and clear my head. I'm too involved right now, too caught up in everything that's changing.
Dell Edmonton is losing "Dell on Call", the line of business that I work in. No jobs are being lost, we are simply moving to other lines of tech support like "corporate customer services" (American business client) and "Americas International", which is Canadian business support. But with all the change comes a lot of pressure to be the best. As a site, a team and an individual. As a site, Dell Edmonton wants DOC to go out with a bang. We're one of the best out there and we have the potential to be the best across the board. As a team, my team wants to excel. We want to lead the way and be better than everyone else. We always have. I'm a big part of that team, I lead projects, do all sorts of extra crap and get involved and the pressure of all this is getting to me. As individuals we need to establish ourselves because we'll be moving to a new line of business. Shifts are determined by stats, so are raises and promotions. We all want to leave DOC looking as good as possible so that we don't get stuck working evenings and weekends for the next 6 months. It's just too much right now, made worse by the thought that I should be in Ottawa, working as a Sales Coach and not worry about any of this shit. I wish I'd moved very very badly sometimes.

I still live with my roommates Adam and Amanda. Things are much better but I'm looking forward to the move, he's a good friend and I would hate to lose that.

I did a test that Jags did. I didn't agree with everything it said about me, but it was mostly right. I'm not posting the results because they're irrelevant. I see myself in a certain light, others see me a different way. It's up to them to decide how I am. I guess it's like hearing your own voice. I hear it one way when I talk, but everyone else hears it the real way. I see what I want in myself. Others see what I show them. They're both me, but the visible me is the more important most of the time because it's the me that determines how people interact with me, how they react to me and what opportunities will arise from my actions. I could be the most caring and wonderful guy on the inside, but if I'm a prick on the outside it doesn't me jack shit.

I've typed a fair bit I think, I don't know where else I want to go with this without breaking my internal censoring. There are somethings that just... don't come out in these and shouldn't come out. I guess that relates to the above bit. So, I remember the time thing and it's 5:48am. That means I typed for a while doesn't it? Hope whoever still reads this leaves a comment :P

Again another long delay.
I haven't been in the posting mood in the last few months. Lots to complain about but not much to say. My roommates continue to frustrate me with their seeming inability to even start paying me back, work is long and starting to get to me, especially recent changes and whatnot.
Life isn't bad at all though. I still dance most weeks, and a lot at home of course. It keeps me sane. I'm not online nearly as much as I used to be, nor do I game as much. I've started a relationship with someone but... I dunno, something new to me, don't know how to view it or approach it.
I think right now I'm just going with the flow, letting what ever happens happen and trying to keep myself afloat. Between a busy social life, a relationship, my family and work I'm pretty swamped. I love my free time and the few hours I get to get online and see people.

With so much happening in the months of October, November and December and me being a generally lazy person I've decided now would be a good time to post about all of what's happened in the past two months and what should be happening through December.

October
- Halloween was good, saw Zombie Girl live and forgot my respirator in a bus shelter.
- I didn't get the position as a Sales Coach and had a -really- rough month at work. I amlost quit a couple times. I was also frustrated by never being able to see my online friends. They mean a lot to me and not being here for them was a real stress inducer.

November
- Thanksgiving is by far my favorite holiday in the year. This year's was amazing. We went to Calgary and spent time with my aunt, uncle and cousins who live there. The rest of the family also came up with us from Edmonton so it was a nice big get-together. I didn't fight with my mom, everyone got really drunk and I met my cousin Jessica's boyfriend. He's very cool and there's talk that they might be getting engaged. I really needed something like this to help me get over October.
- Work still sucked but I started my new shift. I like it though I still don't see people as much as I'd like to. My social life seems to have kicked into high gear and my presense is in high demand. I'm getting a little run ragged and might have to take a break from a few things to collect myself and visit more with other people who mean a lot to me.

December
- I don't know if I love this month or hate it. My birthday is on monday (the 11th). People generally forget it or skimp and only get me a christmas-plus-birthday gift. I don't mind that. What I don't like is that occasionally they make me feel guilty that they only got one gift "I couldn't afford to get you both and with the two being so close together and having to buy for everyone else too, you shouldn't really expect two gifts, it isn't fair to me" type shit. Well I'm really fucking sorry. Thank you for reminding me that my birth was not only an inconvience for you, but for my birthparents as well!
- Christmas. I hate it. I really really fucking hate christmas. I hate the big family thing we do because people always argue and fight and there's resentment about gifts and playing favorites and family politics and all that shit. Not to mention I spent about 4 years hiding in my basement avoiding these things like the plague when I was younger because I didn't have anything in common with anyone in my family. I still don't, but now that I have a potential career they ask questions about that.
- Work. I want to be a Sales Coach. I do not want to talk with fuckwits on the phone anymore. I'm trying to get my metrics up there. I'm doing more special projects, I work overtime and am trying my best to get noticed. If they don't promote me by january I'm gonna be pissed.

As a side note, I'm currently doing my hair christmas colours. Red for the sides/top/back and green for the bangs. I'm still choppin the chelsea and y'all have Jen to thank for that!

So I was bored at work and realized that I spend a lot of time goofing around online while I'm here.
Between calls it's silly videos (until their blocked by the filter) and playing flash games while on calls.
Here's a list of some of my favorite time wasters;


Flash Sites
http://www.mofunzone.com
http://www.flashgames.com
http://www.bestoldgames.net
http://www.crazymonkeygames.com

Movies I like
Boten Anna
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=2015570935756570908
Schnappi Das Kleine Krokodil
http://www.streaming-clips.com/play.php?id=2201
Llama Song
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/llama.php
Badgers! Badgers! Badgers!
http://www.badgerbadgerbadger.com

Other great sites for goofy stuff
http://www.weebls-stuff.com
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com
http://www.youtube.com


Have Fun Y'all!

I am alive! I am happy! I am happy!! *gets thumped over the head and shoved onto a plague cart before being wheeled off*

Pardon the Monty Python reference, it's a good indicator of how I feel. Close to death, but happy none the less. Been dealing with a little bit of a cold the last couple weeks. Just a sore throat in the morning or the odd day where it feels like allergies are acting up. And then I woke up a 3am this morning feeling like crap. But hey, I'm getting together with a bunch of buddies to tabletop RP, so I'm happy! I can make it!

Life has been good. I miss my online friends though, I don't get to rp online nearly as much as I'd like. Between a suddenly active social life and not getting home until 1am I just havn't found the time. I have applied for an internal position as a "Direct to Tech Sales Coach" which, if I get the position, will be a major move for me. It might also mean I get home early enough to see people more often, which would kick so much ass.

On another note, one more musically related of course, I went to Combichrist. My back and neck still hurt from dancing so hard. It was unreal. Just... totally unreal. Consume and Mooniter were great, don't get me wrong at all. I love Jamie's work and think Mooniter kicks ass, but oh fuck was Combichrist good.

Living back home isn't bad. I'm happy to have the pets around, especially Percy and the puppy. Percy's my fat baby, though I'm worried about him. He's been passing blood and muscus in his stool. He's got an appointment at the vet's to find out what's wrong.
The puppy (Nikee) is crazy as ever. He's a great dog though, lots of energy, small enough to cuddle but not a big dog. I really should get a photobuck or something and post shots of him being goofy.

On another musical note,
This post was brought to you by; Converter, Combichrist, Monofader, a healthy dose of Neocitron, the number 47 and the letter Q.

Well, I've been bad about updating this, but not much new has been happening in koi land outside of work. Work is still amazing, my team is one of four piloting the "YTO Project". YTO is "Your Tech Online" a small over-the-phone tech service with amazing results. They're top in the field and Dell decided to contract them to teach a small number of us just how they do it. They specialize in manual spyware removal and networking issues. Two of the things that usually take your average agent forever to get through. We're being taught new tools, different ways to approach problems, different everything. Plus, we're being taught HOW things work, the better we understand the problem the better we can fix it right?
All in all the experience has been amazing. I love learning and I'm learning tonnes. We've also been relocated to another building so we hav eour own seats, meaning we got to decorate. We've got dollar store toys everywhere, nerf guns and disk shooters and all sorts of things. Posters, a singing fish even! (My team is the Fighting Dellfish. talk about ironic eh?)
So, my team rocks, my work space kicks ass and I'm enjoying the work itsself. All in all, I'm loving my job.
Life is much the same with two exceptions. My little sister is now 20. And Mother's Day. Both happened May 14th. We had a lovely brunch, opting to celebrate Mother's Day first and my sister's birthday later. For dinner we went to a friend of the family's place and had BBQ and cake. It was nice. The following weekend we went out for her party. It was hilarious, I was dressed in my best. Straight Jacket, blue/green chelsea, boots and bondage pants. My T-shirt read "Stupid People Piss Me Off". They were scared of me. Then they were like "oooh! he dances pretty!" then we went home. The music sucked but I was REALLY drunk so I didn't care.
So that's my life. Dancing, working and being a geek in between.